Summer - Week 12

 Well, this was my last real week of summer.  However, since we have an extra 2.5 weeks before school starts, it didn't really feel like the last week.  We didn't have anything exciting planned, but we also didn't expect to be quarantined because of a Covid test!

I woke up Wed. morning with some shortness of breath - kind of.  I was just really conscious of needing to take slow, deep breaths.  And, it seemed like when I closed my eyes to try to sleep, I felt like I was going to black out.  I didn't get much sleep, but I did manage to wait until 8:00 to call the doctor (it had been so long since I had been to a doctor, I didn't even know who my doctor was!)  They decided I had enough symptoms to get tested for Covid!  

Chelan and I pulled into the back of the clinic where the dr. checked me out a little bit and decided she should go ahead with a test.  That may have been one of the most uncomfortable 10 seconds of my life!  It felt like a needle spinning around way up inside of my nose.  By the time I had the test, I was convinced that what I was really experiencing was anxiety.  I have never been diagnosed or had trouble with anxiety, but lately, I had just been feeling the heaviness of everything.

That night, I had trouble again, and Chelan and I actually ended up in the ER.  Of course, everything checked out ok, and the doctor there felt like I really was having a panic or anxiety attack!  This is all new territory for me, and since then, I have had 2 sleepless nights, one other doctor visit, and received 2 different meds.  I am hoping for better sleep soon!

I wish my last week of summer had been filled with fun things, with carefree, lazy days.  I wish my whole summer had been that way!  Right now, I'm feeling okay most of the time.  I still wonder if this is all anxiety or not, and I imagine more doctor visits are in order - bad timing with school beginning.  But then again, I wouldn't be surprised if the worry of school is what mostly brought this on.  There are so many unknowns this year and it will just not be normal. 

So -- no pictures this week, just a strange adventure to end the summer.  At least the kids have a couple of more weeks to enjoy!  I head back to school on Monday - if my test is negative!